this blog is blowing up the wrong way...... STOP!

i appreciate all ya for peeping... awwww fuck it... i like the attention but at the same time because motherfuckers see this as entertainment.... but i want to fucking get out all my anger and real life emotions... in other words... STOP MISUSING THIS MOTHERFUCKER FOR SOME COMEDY SHIT, ENTERTAINMENT SHIT!!! awww fuck it... i'm just out of it..


let me just cut this shit off and talk about what i'm really thinking about....... SHIT!! fuck it.. man... i wake up 6:20 in the morning because i feel like it and sleep around 12 or 2 at night. should i continue on this shit? i wake up at 6 because i'm tired of waking up at 12, 1 in the noon and feeling so out of space and shit. you get my point. the sun is all up in my face. i had a dream last night about some fucking kids in a room and me doing some shit. i forgot to look in the dream dictionary while i was at the computer lab but fuck it!!!

i'm also trying to fight that fucking ocd by myself. thank you community college for not having any fucking psychologist to speak to and help angry short black men like ME! i'm avoiding looking at cars, looking at myself in the mirror because i stay doing that (paz ain't no pretty boy motherfucker.. fuck that... i'm sexy and the ladies know it so give me that pussy, girls) and i'm motherfucking avoiding looking at cars and shit. ANTI THUG, BITCH! ATHEIST SOLIDER! GET YOUR MIND... fuck am i talking about!!! FUCK THAT SHIT!