man....... FUCK BEING IN A POSITIVE MOOD. i'm upset, angry, sad... i feel it in the chest!!

yo..... awhile ago and still even though my shit is easing down a bit.


i hate these marks. i'm fin to pay em back. knowwhati'msaying. watching that rayful edmond dvd makes me think what if i was a drug kingpin. i'd fucking have enforcers to fucking get people, kill people, chop up people that i pissed me the fuck off or straight up disrespecting me. for real.... motherfuckers, in my mind, i'm just picturing myself giving orders. folks doing drive by shootings and getting motherfuckers dirty. straight up making shit blood red knowwhati'msaying! motherfuckers be punching me on some anger shit. I HATE EM!

i'm also envisioning a fucking gun, 9MM, right beside my keyboard. me feeling in control! shit.... maybe it's because i was fucking falling asleep in the chair and i have schoolwork to do and applications for jobs to fill up. one thing through, awhile ago, i was thinking about shooting down that same fuck i HATE so much yo. i hate that mark yo! HATE HIM! faggot ass flambee. yo... i hate that dude for real. dodge the funeral of his and everything. i don't know that faggot. FUCK HIM! i ain't saying anything just in case some shit happens and motherfuckers try to point the finger at me thinking i have a motive or whatever. shit....


and another thing.... i am sad, upset, angry and right now! MOTHERFUCKERS IS DOING ME IN WRONG YO! motherfuckers gonna get it dirty yo! for real.... try to fucking...



oh wait.. my mom telling me to do some shit.. all mad and shit. FUCK IT! man.... people love seeing me at my lowest point and one time, i'm gonna flip on one of these people i hate so much. fucking murder them and shit. i'm out 1.